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[Apr. 28th, 2005|10:03 pm] |
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so I haven't writtin in this for a long time. I just kinda got carried away with things. I also dont think that the whole cyber world needs to know about my life, so if your my friend then you already know whats been going on. I love Chris, I can say that, and we are trying our best to stay close. It's going good so far too. Lets see whats gone down, Lizz and Cody have been fighting and having problems. I dont like it, I dont like when Lizz is sad. She cries a lot, and gets sick and stuff. bleh///
The scene has been driving me crazy. END.
In class today, we searched for colleges and what such. My "path" is arts and communication, and I found a college. Academy of Arts University. Its in San Fransisco CA. I really like it. I've read a lot about it, visited their site and everything. It seems pretty cool. Its got,photography, film making, arcitecture, graphic design, fine art, animation, and fashion. It would be perfect for me if It had some kind of writing major. but idk. I have 4 years. :)
I think tomorrow Lizz is having a girls night. So Im staying with her, and then saturday I think Chris is coming over. I haven't seen him in about 2 weeks, and I miss him. :(
Well, Its time for my bed. School has been put on the to do list. later cats
stay safe and take care please <3
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Lauren Elizabeth |
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[Apr. 15th, 2005|09:57 pm] |
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so I kinda forgot to update in this. the something corporate last saturday was AWESOME. :)
On tuesday I had a really bad encounter with these black people on the bus, so now I refuse to ride it. so wednesday I walked like 2 or 3 miles to a friends house. and thursday I had a friend take me home, and today... well LIZZ BITCH fucking stranded me, so my brother had to come get me. I went to a local show tonight. Chavez, Isaiah, and The Frantic Vim. omg. fucking amazing I tell you. the lead singer totally grabbed me, and started kissing my neck. it was so hot. he also grabbed me again and sang she had such pretty eyes. ORGASMIC i tell you. but the music, was awesome. I realyl enjoyed it. i got freaked out because someone from behind me grabbed me and held their arms around me, and held themselves against me, so finally I turned around and it was Shay. lol. I was like holy shit. anyways, not much has been going on. Chris and I are fine. :) we are hanging out tomorrow. and then monday too. :)
FUUUUUCK YEAH
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Lauren Elizabeth |
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[Apr. 7th, 2005|11:04 pm] |
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Okay. So yeah. holy shit. the night went ok. Everything was fine until my brother came into the story. Chris and I went to the movies, we had a great time. Then we went to the park, and then back to my house. We were in my bed, just doing whatever. and then my brother comes home. He was there for about 10 minutes, and didn't ever say anything. Btw, his room is connected to mine. Then when Chris and I were doing... ugh well something, my brother fucking pounds on the door, and says come out. So im like oh shit, i fix myself up, and chris does the same. Then I opened the door, and my brother points at Chris, and says out. now. So I tell my brother to give us 2 minutes. Then I walked Chris out to his car, and he went home. Btw, Chris is fucking scared as hell. My brother hates him, and Chris feels really bad. I had a talk with my brother after that, and he fucking had a bat in his hand. Michael hates Chris though, and he said no more guys in my room on school nights. Ugh, much more, but I dont want to go into detail. Lets just say I feel like shit, and no one is helping. Everyone seems to like to put me down. fuck you all
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| uh huh this my shit. |
[Apr. 6th, 2005|09:29 am] |
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Well, things have been weird lately. I'm dating Chris, yet I still have feelings for Nick. Chris knows I kind of still like Nick, and Nick knows I like him. Nick likes me too. I kept the whole fact about me dating Chris from Nick for a couple days, and then I finally told him. I admitted that I lied and everything. I thought he would get mad and not want to take me to the concert this weekend, but no. He was totally fine with it. I think everyone is only worried about me getting hurt, so I'm glad they all care.
I have missed Chris like crazy lately. I spent 7 straight hours with him, and then I haven't seen him since last Friday. He is coming to see me tomorrow though. The distance is becoming a problem. He lives abou 25 minutes away from me, but he drives. I just dont like the distance very much, and neither does he. But we are managing ;(
You know.... Nick calls me more than Chris does. I think its odd. Nick is also buying me a hawthorne heights ticket. He loves them, and honestly... I've only heard 2 songs of theirs. They aren't too bad, but I only want to go because Ludo is playing. Nick is buying my ticket though also. He has become real nice since he found out I have a boyfriend, but then more mean also. He's trying to dis Chris a lot, and make me like him more it seems. He seems jealous, but he doesn't know that I'm jealous of him all the time. DRAMA. fuck it :)
I told my dad I have a boyfriend, but I didn't tell him that he's 19. I dont want to. and now I'm scared shitless to have my dad meet him. My mom already has, and didn't say anything. They all think that he is 16, because well... he sort of looks 16. Anyways, I really like this guy. so stfu.
I think I may have killed Johnny..... oh shit.
Last night Nick called me at 12:44 in the morning, I have got to stop talking on the phone late. :(
Well I'm in school right now, and this just shows you why I'm not doing the best, I'm to caught up in my personal life, and my writing, that school has been put aside.
oh shit
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Lauren Elizabeth |
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[Apr. 3rd, 2005|10:29 am] |
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i got new clothes, i cut 3 inches of my hair off, and i got acrilic nails! for being changing in one day. stfu |
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[Apr. 2nd, 2005|10:34 am] |
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| | Copeland | ] |
oh em gee-
I really do have the best boyfriend. Chris came and got me last night, we went to the movies and saw Sin City. They asked for ID but Chris is 19, haha, so he had it. ahahahahahh. anyways, he paid for it. how cute. Well, I wasn't really paying attention to the movie. I did in between make out sessions, and I thought he was paying attention to the movie the whole time, and well, he wasn't. he said he was thinking about me the whole time. awww. yeah stfu.
But after the movie, he came to my house. we ended up in my room, on my bed. and yeah people, WE DID STUFF. in fact, we did stuff, until he left at 5:00 in the morning, it was tough, because we both kept wanting to fall asleep. But finally he had to go, and he tucked me in, gave me a kiss, and said he'd call me when he got home. so when he left, he apparently woke up my mom and my moms bf, cuz they were wondering the house, wondering who had been here at 5 in the morning, so they checked my room, and of course i was in it, and they checked all the other rooms, and then went to bed. Oh, and Chris called and said he made it home ok. then i went to bed finally. i was so exhausted. and the night went perfect. Chris, if effing wonderful. I can't even begin to explain it. But my mom was all asking me who was here last night, and I said I didn't know.
eeeeek. ah who cares. I CANNOT wait until I see him next. fun shit.
well later gators. i gotta hair cut to catch in a couple hours.
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Lauren Moscato |
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[Mar. 28th, 2005|11:20 pm] |
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Yeah.
So tonight was interesting. Stupid rumors can all go to hell, and I think you all can suck it. :)
I always seem to fall for the wrong person. And, well, not necassarily FALL, because Im not in love with them, but I've gotten pretty close to them, and I would want to be with them. Thats kinda impossible though. I'm not supposed to them. I told myself before I got into this little clusterfuck. But hey, ITS TEEN HEAT.
hehe, thats Alan's name.
Anyway, I like someone. I know it cant work out. Im trying not to like this person, but they aren't helping the situation. god damnit.
i have a date friday with chris. woot woot. and nick may stay the night with me on April 9th after the something corporate show. SHOULD BE FUN.
but I have to go. Im waiting for Nick to call, and its 11:25, and I have school tomorrow.... well that is, if my mom remembers :)
later fuckers
Dazed and Confused
Lauren Elizabeth |
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[Mar. 27th, 2005|07:11 pm] |
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Hmm lets see. Friday I hung out with Dana and we did shit. I was on the phone til flippin 3:20, then my phone died on Nick. hahahah.
Saturday, I was supposed to go to this party with my dad, but I didn't want to. Nichi was home, so I stayed home. My dad told me not to go out, so when he left, nichi and I went out. We messed around and whatever. Then she dropped me off at home and went to her bfs house. She left me home for like 2 hours, so I took pictures.
Today, is easter. My easter was good. My parents spoiled the hell outta me. They gave me lotsa shit, I gave it all away though. My moms been bitching more, I let it slide though. whatever.
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| Never had a drink that I didnt like, had a taste of you threw up all night |
[Mar. 23rd, 2005|12:13 pm] |
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| | Alkaline Trio- Crawl | ] |
Well, Id better write in here sometime or other. But um, feelings change, people change. what can you do. Let me tell you, my feelings change just about as often as I change my shirt.... wich is about every hour or so. literally. Nick has been an asshole, yet him and I are still going to the show together. Adam, is nothing but nice and sweet. He's just not around as often as I would like him to be. Eric, well he's just busy a lot. what can you do. Landon, is the flavor of the week. Haha, Im horrible I know. Him and I are gonna hang when he's free in the summer. haha. Oh did I mention he currently has a gf? yeah dont worry, Im being good.
Lets see. Natalie and Kevin are no longer. I dont get it. I mean, maybe its not my place to know exactly what went down. But these guys were bound for each other. They had talked about marriage, and it was just perfect. I mean, the guy moved from Oklahoma to Texas.... for her. Thats right, he totally moved down there. Insane. Then one day, oh Kevin dumped me... he's in the shower. WHHHATTTT!? confused.. to the max. Oh and to let you people in on the whole story about me, Natalie, and Kevin is.... eek. Ok here goes.
( the story ) |
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[Mar. 19th, 2005|11:46 pm] |
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ahahah. I have a new love. and few of you know that :)
but Amanda DID write me a cute poem. haha. I love you.
Lauren is so cool
I see her at school
I'm so in love with her hair
She's the best friend, no-one can compare
Lauren is so cool
If you don't like her, you're a fool
I love her
and she rocks this world like no other
She's so crazy
and so lazy(lol j/k)
she's so nice
g2g now and eat some rice
haha. thanks Amanda!
I am lazy though. so har har har.
aight well Im out
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Lauren Cudmore |
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| No one saw him disembark at night |
[Mar. 19th, 2005|08:59 pm] |
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well my day was mellow. I woke up at noon and got on here. talked to my loooove Julie, and then my mom made me watch the incredibles. THANK GOD for Wes and Cameron coming over and saving me.
Nick was feeling sick, I didn't get to talk to him much. Adam came home, and he talked to me. Im suprised, and kinda glad he's home. :)
Eric.. if you read this. I hope your doing ok. I havnt really talked to you much lately, because you havn't wanted to talk... but ok. whatever.
I've discovered that my moms got a drinking problem. It never hit me before. But all the pieces fit, you always see her with a drink in her hand. I've been writing in here all this shit about her being crazy and everything. and her boyfriend is an alcoholic. FUUCKKK
This bitch is out~
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Lauren Cudmore |
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| Im not your fucking mommy |
[Mar. 19th, 2005|12:08 am] |
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| | Cross Stitched Lips | ] |
Well now. bitch. fuckjdklfajjeasssdkahjew
that jew was accidental
anyways, Lizz came by today. what a fucking miracle. then my mom rambled and rambled, therefore i didnt get to talk to her at all. oh, and my mom said, so Lizz, what do you and your boyfriend do besides have sex? omfg. i told her she was fucking crazy. she has no response. the woman is literally psycho. we were talking about her bf cody, whom my mom has met, and 5 minutes later, whos cody? she has a major drinking problem and I hate being around her, and I hate being at her house period. shes crazy.
Anyways, Lizz left. I called Dana. went to her house and hung out. then we went to the movies, only to see my entire grade there. Literally anyone who was anybody was there, it was fucking insane. We saw ring 2, it was good. I thought it was scary, but semi-predictable, and the scary shit just kept coming and coming. ANNOYING.
I met Dana's bf, he's pretty cool. Casie went crazy and kept calling my cell phone the whole time, even though she was in the god damn theatre. she went crazy cuz she had to tell Dana something and we just left.
WHO CARES BIOTCH
Then Dana's mom dropped me off at home, in her bf mustang. I waited in the cold for 5 minutes, until roger decided to let me in. then my mom screamed at me, that I was home. then she asked who dropped me off, and i told her Dana's mom, and then roger yelled BULLSHIT. so I told him to mind his own fucking business. then mom came out, and was like that didnt sound like a woman driving, so I started yelling at her. and told her to leave me the fuck alone... and she left.
then I called Nick, I rambled on of course. But whatever.
Spring Break is oficially on.
woo hoo
fucccck
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[Mar. 17th, 2005|11:02 pm] |
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Hello Beautiful world-
Aight, heres how it goes. Nick is coming to see me April 9th before the show, we are gonna hang out at my house. woot woot. and then go to the show of course. Im also meeting Adam at the AAr, and hellogoodbye show. thats gonna be sick..AND I got a date tonight. well not for tonight, but i got asked on a date, by chris. woot woot. Im so fucking happy. things are goin goooood. I love Beccaaaaa and her vachina..... peace im out!
Dazed and Confused
Lauren Cudmore biottttttttttttcccccccccccchhhhhhhhhh
oh and Bree's vagina is hotter than yours! |
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[Mar. 16th, 2005|05:33 pm] |
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So i really do hate this livejournal. it always fucking erases my shit. ok. Monday I skipped 7th block,and Nichi said she will take me to the SoCo show. Tuesday Hoff came by, I went to the movies with my dad, and Nick called. Today, I hate school and all my friends can fuck off. Adam is in Florida fucking another girl, I dont want his beef anymore. My dad wants to go to Orlanda, and Eric is there. woot woot. My stepmom likes to crush my thoughts though, just to show shes the bitch of the house, hey guess what. I'll make you a sign ok whore. My mom wont let me go to Underoath tomorrow, I hope she chokes on an avacado seed. I havnt talked to Lizz in forever. I give up. I WANT MY DAMN MUSHROOM BACK.
I feel like loving people, or fucking them. I want to fuck, Nick, Ryan, Becca, James, and Eric. haha
I effing love you and stuff
Oh and this is in the book im reading. I had to read it twice
When Steve jones would masturbate, he'd pour hot water down a hollowed french loaf, chuck some raw liver down it, and then fuck it. the hot water would cook the liver, and I supposed his dick cooked it too. Then he's come in it and set it aside. I would turn up and Steve would say, "im sorry, ive done it again.. should we make glen matlock a sandwich". I particularly remember how he used to love how soft the bread was. |
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[Mar. 7th, 2005|11:10 pm] |
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JesusLovesAtreyu: well
JesusLovesAtreyu: i wasa going
JesusLovesAtreyu: but i remember
JesusLovesAtreyu: that california
JesusLovesAtreyu: is going to break off and float away
JesusLovesAtreyu: from the US
JesusLovesAtreyu: so im starting a fun raiser
JesusLovesAtreyu: for like
JesusLovesAtreyu: a fucking lot of super glue
JesusLovesAtreyu: we're going to glue california on to the US
JesusLovesAtreyu: wanna join?
Billysmisstress: yes
Billysmisstress: what will this fundraiser be called?
JesusLovesAtreyu: protect the state of arnold
Billysmisstress: LMAO
JesusLovesAtreyu: just arnold for short
JesusLovesAtreyu: dedicated to him
JesusLovesAtreyu: since
JesusLovesAtreyu: he is so good governor
Billysmisstress: yes
JesusLovesAtreyu: we all love him
JesusLovesAtreyu: and what he's done for california
Billysmisstress: and no one wants to type his last name
JesusLovesAtreyu: lol]
Billysmisstress: schwartsanegro
JesusLovesAtreyu: ezactly
Billysmisstress: or something
Billysmisstress: i wonder if he has a muscular penis.....
JesusLovesAtreyu: eww
Billysmisstress: it might be bigger than he bicep for all we know
Billysmisstress: or... I wonder if his penis can lift weights |
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[Mar. 7th, 2005|10:25 am] |
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Ok well right now Im at school. Im in publications, a free writing class. Usually I write short stories and poems. Right now Im totally blank though. So I decided to free write in here. First, I would like to take a minute or two to laugh at all of the emo children who get on here, and type away about how no one understands them, they're parents dont understand them, or how they dont know what to feel, they are so hurt, they just want to be happy, im depressed, I cant tell the person I like how they feel. BLAH BLAH BLAH. yeah, you. STFU. Stop being so god damn emo, your life isnt that bad!
Ok moving on....Im happy for once. I.am.god.damn.happy. Yeah that made no sense, but I guess im too happy so its ok. :) I finally got all my bunches o school work done. Im not fighting with my parents. My dad finally emailed me from the Domenican Republic. Great concerts coming up. Adam is fine. Plus, I feel very clean. Yes Eric, many showers ;). ITS ALL JUST FAN-FUCKING TASTIC, BITCHES!
I talked to Natalie. Kevins visit was wonderful, and Kevo is finally a real Texan! haha. That is so awesome. I love those two, honestly. I just wish the best for them.
Well Today I sported the Michelle Nolan look. haha, thats right. I wore it curly, (which I never do), and had it half pulled back. I just might have to take pictures for Gibby. I also got called Cruela DeVille, because I have the pink stripe going back. haha. It looks sick. I also wore my barbie doll shoes today. Havnt tripped yet!
The guys might be going to the Something Corporate show with me April 9th. Shay, Tyler, and Blake that is. Also, Amanda might be coming, and maybe my sister. woot woot. I love SoCo. They are so emo. :)
About the Underoath show.... I really dont have any money right now. but Amanda said that she could loan be some money, since she is also going. I would really appreciate that. I love Underoath with a passion. The tickets are only 14 dollars, so I know I can pay her back in no time.
My mother sort of got a new job. Its more of a 4 week term thing. I dont know the name, but I hope the fuckers go to hell. Since my mother works for them now, she has to be at work at 5:00 am and she gets home at 6:30 p.m. What kind of people would make a mother work 13 1\2. ok i have to go.... mr allen is not approving. haha imagine that. |
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[Mar. 6th, 2005|11:10 pm] |
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Ok short update. Today I woke up at noon, did homework til 6, ate, got on here. I put more shit on my myspace thing. So check it out. http://profiles.myspace.com/users/7691065
Geesh, 2 many fucking concerts coming up. The most recent is March 17th, Underoath. I dont know if I wanna go.
Aight, Im out like Becca at Birthday Partiessssssss
payce
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Lauren Cudmore |
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| With Karate I'll Kick Your Ass |
[Mar. 5th, 2005|10:44 pm] |
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| | Greeley Estates- Through Waiting | ] |
I made cupcakes today... or attempted at least. hahaha. I sort of filled them up too much, and they overflowed and it turned into one foot long muffin=messy mess. eek. Anyways, I got drop kicked today because I pointed out Cody's hickey while we were eating breakfast with Lizz's family at this boy scout convention. LMAO. Then I saw Andrew there.... wait.... I DIDNT see Andrew there. yeah. he wasnt there, I sware. Lizz and I watched Bambi last night. Well only half of it. I still dont know the point of it. honestly. Adamizzle.... I heart you. Besides the creepy wedding and florida girl, your ok. My daddy is in the Domenican Republic, and he can't use his phone there. So he told me he would email me, but he hasn't yet. It kinda dissapoints me. I never go a long period of time without seeing my dad, and its been over a week now. fuck. that old bastard better email me Road trip to Something Corporate, 15$, April 9th, Saturday. CALL ME. Quote of the Day: Those are hellacious cupcakes! - my mom I also took new pics today. One week ago I redyed my hair pink. I dont know if you can tell the difference. here are the pics though.
 ( This is why I fucking love my friends ) |
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